Marriage

In my age, it’s too often I hear them ask. About marriage. I currently enjoy my very own self after having a very bad relationship whatsoever. But i didn't resist that someday, I will find myself in need of somebody to share the rest of my life with.

It was the time when I was walking out of my office gate, It was dusk, a little over the office hour. I was approaching the automatic teller machine while I saw this woman. That woman sat at the bench around lobby waiting for her husband to pick her up. The thougth came to me deeply.

My heart and thought conspires that time, to pray : “ya Allah, when will I have that man to share the rest of every second of my life with? I really wanna get settled, please show me the way.”

Ever since that time.

For me marriage means commitment. Commitment to share every single thing that happens to you. Commitment to compromise. Compromise that life might be hard sometimes but we have to carry it on.

Marriage as a means of commitment to ourselves, commitment to God, commitment to our spouse, commitment to the family (of both), and commitment to our relatives that me, myself at the certain time and place has decide to pronounce that every single thing I’ve done in my life eversince as the name of us two.

Marriage is a commitment to learn, to learn that life might be bitter sometimes, but with the two of us sharing this together will taught us in becoming a better person.

Marriage is a commitment, commitment to compromise that sometimes we disagree, sometimes we argue, but we compromise that as a means of enriching ourselves with patience.

Marriage is a commitment, commitment to feel needy for each other’s presence, body and soul. As each of us realise that imperfections lies in us, so that we both become US to complete each other.

I havent married yet, but for the sake of my (lack of) understanding about commitment in marriage, thats the least i can think of when everybody (esp in my family) asks about marriage. I mean it aint that easy to do so much for others as I am a lot more egocentric person. But as I pray to God to let me fall in love again, I’m on going to become a better version of me in the state of a relationship.