random thoughts told you stories

Have you ever been into a situation where a song can lead you to somewhere on imaginary land that you just felt like happy and something bloomed inside your heart and you spend the whole of your day smiling just because u heard this song? I did, it is a song of Fun, titled The Gambler. The song was so about fairy tale, so about a happily ever after love story that you barely can't find in the real life. The fairy tale story for me is always about those pretty houses with spacious backwards filled with flowers, chirping birds heard all over the day, silver lining from the green trees, the smell of a lovely air, and the laughing sound of happy kids on the front ground. On the front porch there was a pretty couple have a small chit chat with tea and some toast completed by the love in their heart. Ah lovely day for sure and I called it la la la la land :) Hear this song of Fun is made felt that way.

“siapa?” message sent. Seusai membereskan meja dan isi tas cangklongku, aku meneguk setengah gelas terakhir air putih diatas meja, sambil menunggu balasan pesan, aku membuka-buka laman twitter. Nomor tidak dikenal itu t iba-tiba menelepon. Lantunan “youre beautiful” dari James Blunt terdengar hingga refrain, aku enggan mengangkat telepon. Dalam beberapa detik itu aku benci memi k irkan bahwa ketika seseorang tiba-tiba meminta maaf atas kesalahan yang terjadi 2 tahun yang lalu, sudah tentu bahwa luka lama sedang mencoba untuk dibuka kembali. Aku benci mengingat-ingat masa lalu. Why don't you came into my life again just as a stranger?  A complete stranger instead of came in, asking for apology about what have passed? Damn.

It was a fine afternoon after having a tight meeting schedule with partners, I'm preparing to go home, clean up the mess on my desk. And left my desktop on until tomorrow. I love earth and I want to keep it safe but I can't leave alone the mess on my front desktop without reviewing it first, and that afternoon I feel so tired to spend some times before missing my bed so badly. With a massive headache I recieve a message, from the unknown number, asking for apologize. "Amy, I do am sorry for the things we've been through that last two years. Can I pick you home today, after a short conv  with a giant size of gelato? or some earl grey can do?" Tue, Sept 17th 2013, 18.44. Aku bengong. Banget. Siapa?

This blog suppose to be my travel tale's blog, or some kinda photo blog from my camera pocket but my last days post is always about cheesy things and things that I wan to write at the moment. Its because my target of "a post a day". A friend once challenge me to keep consistency in writing, that's why I just want to write anything I can at the moment. Since writing is liberating, its always be.

I was having a late light dinner last night before sleep, switching TV channels and finds out that my most favorite tv serial Royal Pains is the next show on Starworld, it was almost 10 pm. Since I never be in the house during day so I never knew that the new episode is just starting over. Royal Pains is a rom-com TV series follows Hank Lawson, a young emergency room doctor who decided to move to Hamptons after being wrongly blamed for an important patient's deat h. Hank starts his own HankMed there and help poor people for free and at the same time becomes a royal doctor for a wealthy titled Germany businessman who became Hank's first client. The series takes place in Long Island, Southampton, with Oheka Castle is the most prominent place shows in the movie. And it seems like the place where the scenes takes place is the main reason I don't stop follow this tv series, aside of the brilliant doctor of Hank. The clear picture of it made the summer feel so breeze. Oheka...

Suatu kali aku merasa sangat tertekan dengan keadaan di kantor, sekilas tampak dari luar, unit kerjaku menyenangkan, obrolan-obrolanku kepada teman-teman tentang seneng-senengnya bekerja dengan rekan kerja yang masih pada muda-muda itu lebih banyak sebagai kamuflase jadinya, padahal aku bercerita tentang yang sebenarnya hanya kepada sebagian orang yang aku percaya. Suatu kali itu, aku bilang kepada seorang teman dekat, bagaimana inginnya aku ‘kabur’ dari realita kerjaan dengan boss yang demanding itu, bagaimana bobroknya institusi ini padahal aku pun makan dari penerimaan gaji disini, dan banyak hal lain dari segala pikiran negative yang bermunculan seketika. Malam itu aku pulang kerja dan merasa sangat lelah sekali. Begitu jelas bagaimana pikiran-pikiran negative melumpuhkan syaraf-syaraf positif dalam diri, lahir maupun batin. Tulisan ini bukan tentang curhatan (ngarepnya), tapi mungkin akan berguna sebagai self reminder. Seketika setelah aku mengeluh dengan segala keluha...