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Pathetic Saturday : under the state of Randomness.

Have u felt like it’s really really boring until you didn't even know what to do? Like what you’re trying to do to kill that boredom did nothing at the end and you can switch activities once in a while instantly, like you did so much randomness in a very short of time? It does happen to me this time. And it happened to one of my friend at office yesterday, when the working hour just got off.

For me the feeling of this boredom can lead me to any of random things. I woke up to the fact that I missed doing my prayer on time so I forced my body to move and did my obligation. After it done, i don't know what would I do in this whole day, and when such feeling hit me, it feels like shit.

It’s actually rain that screw all of the plans. I've planned to go at some place looking for a proper baby stroller (with a proper price of course) as a present for my friend’s new born baby girl, and will maybe end up home with a pair of wedges or liberated feeling after bought some good books. But then I ended up feel bored alone inside my locked room.

Okay, let me just tell you so what I did in this whole pathetic Saturday. After done my prayer, I took my reading list and continue my reading until like 2 pages before I lost focus. I open up my laptop and find bunch of movies there, while I try to play The Child, the movie is going about 10 minutes while I realize it must have very bad score at MIDB, so I stopped it, and throw the file to the recycle bin. I finally continue watching the series of Revenge until I fell asleep.

These last few days I did movie marathon of Revenge series and maybe I took the movie so curiously and pretty seriously that I always woke up after a very strange dream. Oh I wish the movie didn't affect such thing, but it happened again today when I wake up from my nap, with sweat all over my body, my heart pumped and I feel terribly hungry. Hell, okay, I was having my nap before eat anything for breakfast this morning, which is pretty bad because I had Gasthritis problem, and thankfully God, my stomach just starve not the pain of suffer from that overreacted gastric. I took a chocolate cake and make an instant noodle, I refuse to get out  and buy some proper food because it was still rain hard outside, besides my stomachache craving for food already, like it didn't want any excuse to move so I eat whatever I can eat. After having my quick brunch, I decided to get up from my bed, clean up my room, play some music and took a bath.

It was refreshing after-all, so I wouldn't screw the feeling by spending the whole day sleeping, so I took my laptop, play Klondike, Tripeaks, Solitaire until I switch thought of these things:

Didn't I always want to draw some thing whatever random things happen, but I obviously can only draw when I have time and mood, well, its maybe just not the time. Next. Didn't I have swore to my self to finish reading Titik Nol on January? February almost over and I haven’t finish reading it yet, yeah I didn't like to read it when I lost focus, so to the fact that I am now in a state of randomness it’s obviously so hard to stay focus. Next. Didn't I want to do some refreshment during weekend? Err.. I didn't feel like too creative this time, maybe next time. Well, I did actually improve my drawer, I mean that tiny part in the drawer where my underwear placed, and it’s actually because the last time I cannot find my favorite pant. Next. I want to write! I should spend the whole weekend for a very sophisticated writing and post it on my blog, maybe a line or two of essay that pour my true feeling about being an independent (actually pathetic-selfish) woman or just to write a poem, or just some of my random day. Like .... this time! Yeay it actually happened.


Well it actually already 4 pm on Saturday, and I still feel bored. For that today will end up so soon, thankfully God for blessing this pathetic soul craving for a travel.

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